You are not welcome.
I hate you.
You ruin everything.
The end.
*pat pat* I understand. Mine has been here for over a week already.
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Loki is taught from a very young age that being a Jotun was the equivalent of being a monster. He is socialized to believe that they are a thing of nightmares, a thing to be hated and feared. So when he realizes what he is, when he realizes that he is that outcast, this abominable figure, that he is a part of the hated race of Jotuns, he breaks. In the first gif in the set, Thor, (barely twelve years old, max?), is already proclaiming his hate for the Jotun race and vowing to ‘hunt them down and slay them all,’ Aside from how honestly sad that is to hear from someone as young as Thor, it also must be really painful for Loki, not in that moment, but much later, when Odin reveals who he truly is.
Second row: Loki’s spent a lot of time being told that his craft is silly, spent a lot of time in brother’s shadow, spent a lot of time being told to shut the fuck up. The one thing that he’s good at—being a wordsmith, of sorts, is something that he never gets to utilize, because he is constantly being mocked or shut down. It’s heartbreaking. Another thing about Loki, I genuinely believe he loves his brother. Loki doesn’t think Thor is fit for the crown, yet when Thor complains that this was ‘supposed to be his day of triumph’ Loki says, ‘It will come’ and I believe that Loki believes that. I believe that as Loki later states, that he never wanted the throne, he legitimately only wanted to be Thor’s equal. But, Loki, in doing this, in setting up this little charade, has managed to get his brother, the only person who really knew Loki, and still loved him, banished from Asgard. Yes, Loki wanted Thor’s coronation delayed, but I doubt he ever meant for it to get as bad as it did. There’s a point right before Odin’s sentenced Thor when Loki tries to intercede, and Odin shuts him up. I am convinced beyond a doubt that had he let Loki finish his sentence, he would have confessed. But that doesn’t happen, so what does? Thor gets banished, and for once, Loki isn’t second best, no one’s telling Loki to shut up and sit down (because he’ll never be as good as Thor, anyways). It’s a nice change. Is it awful on Loki’s behalf? Fuck yes it is. Is it understandable? To a degree. After that everything gets fucked up. Loki’s revealed to be Laufey’s son—something that he says with what I saw as an incredibly large amount of shame and sadness—and Odin falls into the Odin-Sleep, Loki is told that he is to be the ruler of Asgard until his father awake, Thor has been banished, you are the sole heir, etc. He looks confused, and a little hesitant, but he accepts. The thing here is that Loki went from having almost no authority to having literally, all possible authority. It’s like giving someone who can’t ride a bicycle without training wheels a Ferrari. It’s stupid, and he lets it get to his head.
Third row: Loki has literally lost it. He’s vowing to annihilate the Jotuns, in some weird show of power for his father’s sake, as if to tell him that he can be a warrior, he can be Thor. Loki hates his race, and I think it’s fair to say that he hates himself at this point. He’s fucking crying as he goads Thor into a fight. Loki is riddled with self-esteem issues, loneliness, and that emptiness that comes with feeling out of place and underappreciated all of your life. Loki is tragic, not because he falls into a starry abyss and is assumed to have been swallowed up in darkness just as he loses everything he’s ever had—but because even in “death”, he fails to realize that he is wrong. The Jotuns aren’t monsters because they have blue skin and red eyes, the Jotuns are monsters because of what they chose to do. Loki wanted so badly to dissociate from something that is intrinsic to his nature, that he nearly loses himself in the process.
Loki is the single most sympathetic villain I have ever come across. He is a product of how he was raised, how he was treated, how he was socialized, and a victim of who he is from birth, a Jotun. He never stood a chance.
“Monsters are real…they live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” –Stephen King
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“J.A.R.V.I.S call Fury we are not going to let another seventy-years go by this time.”
Can I just add this? Okay.
Imagine if they were too late. And Tony lost his one true love. Imagine him turning to alcohol yet again. The one person who brought balance to his life and made him a better person is now gone. Before he met Steve he only fooled around, and when Steve came into his life, something changed. He suddenly had a newfound meaning. A reason to be a better person.
And after a while, Tony couldn’t handle all of this anymore, so he pulled out the core and let nature run its course. Imagine Pepper finding him lifeless on the floor with a note saying “I am not half as good at what I do, as when I’m doing it next to you”.
THAT’S OKAY I DIDN’T NEED MY HEART TONIGHT
Just when you feel okay tonight…
The last person in the world Tony ever wanted to be compared to was his father. Not because Howard was the worst man to ever live or anything as foolish as that, but because of what it would mean to be like his father. Tony knew Howard Stark in a way that few did. Not as the genius inventor that helped bring the world into the Age of Technology; but as a drunk, mean, detached, less-than-half-decent father and husband.
Tony didn’t hate his father; far from it, really. It was his desire to be accepted by Howard that had eventually driven him to bitterness, but never once had he truly hated the man. Still, the last thing he wanted was to be compared to him.
Yet as he sat crouched over his desk (in the same way he remembered Howard doing so), his fingers tapping a soothing beat into his skull (Howard did that too, he thinks), with a third glass of whiskey empty by his elbow (definitely Howard); he couldn’t help but think about how he was just like his father. It made him sick.
He sighed, though it came out more as a low shudder; and it sounded like a foreign noise to him because Tony Stark does not sigh like that. Tony Stark is too upbeat and in the moment to let anything get him down.This was all Steve’s fault.
40 days ago
“Sir, Captain Rogers is calling.”
Tony barely looks up from his work, taking another drink and stretching back. ‘About time’ he almost says. Steve had been gone for almost two days, some sort of S.H.I.E.L.D. work in London; Tony hadn’t been invited. He’d thought about crashing the party anyways, but it seemed too much like something he would do and he knew Fury would be ready for him. So rather than go through the trouble of outwitting Fury (not really any trouble at all. Fury was always one step ahead, but Tony was definitely far more intelligent), Tony had decided to stay home and get some work done.
So far he’d managed to make Hawkeye two new bows, both absolutely perfect in balance and sight, he’d started work on the design specs for a Mark VIII, he’d begun processing a rare (possibly alien) material S.H.I.E.L.D. had sent him, and he’d completely updated J.A.R.V.I.S.’ database. All in all he’d gotten a fair amount done for 48 hours, much more than he’d normally get done with the constant distraction known as Captain Rogers.
Not that he was complaining.
“Answer the call, J.A.R.V.I.S.”
It’s a moment before the connection is established, and Tony can tell immediately that Steve is on the move just from the sound of the engine in the background. “Tony, my plane is crashing.”
There’s a surprising level of calmness in Steve’s voice as he says it, like he’s resigned to the fact; but Tony can recognize the ever-so-slight stress in his tone that signifies distress. Tony’s lips press together into the façade of a pout, even though he knows Steve can’t see him. “Fine, fine. I’m coming to save you.” He says in an almost annoyed tone, like it’s such a hassle. It’s not, of course; Tony’s mind is quickly deducing the best route to reach Steve as fast as possible, and he’s already getting ready to suit up.
“It’s too late.”
Tony knows it’s not possible for your body to just shut down completely, but he’s pretty sure that’s exactly what happens to him when he registers Steve’s words. For a moment he just stares at the screen in silence, like he’s expecting Steve to tell him ‘Just kidding.’ But Steve’s voice was completely serious, and Tony knows he’s telling the truth.
What gets him the most is that Steve sounds okay with it; like he’s just accepted the fact and there’s nothing that can or will be done.
“I love you Stark.”
Tony’s hands are clutching the table now. His mouth feels dry and nausea sweeps over him. “Steve, wait-“
The connection is cut.
Tony’s pretty sure he’s going to be sick.Present time
When he chokes on a sob, disgust washes over him. The memory is too fresh a wound, even a month and a half later. Every last resource at his disposal has gone into finding Steve’s ship; so far it’s been a lost cause. Fury tried to convince him as much, even Pepper had voiced concerns over Tony’s priorities.
His priorities. Like Steve wasn’t a priority.He hasn’t built or designed a single thing since Steve disappeared; he hasn’t the time for that. He wasn’t going to be like his father. He wasn’t going to allow 70 years to pass before Captain America was found again.
But the more and more Tony tries to keep from repeating his father’s failures, the more and more he ends up just like him: drinking, obsessed, and ignoring all other relationships around him. In a way it was an eye opener; he finally understood why his father had done what he’d done, because Tony was doing it all again now. It finally dawned on him:Howard had loved Steve too.
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